Casting away my nets; just following: more engagements...

just received news from a close brother in church that he has proposed, and is getting married!

exited and happy for him, yet at the same time with so many friends around my age group getting married, I'm getting broke! giving out too many Ang Bao le.. hahaha..

nervous n excited, "what does it really mean to be engaged!" he shared..

well, I wouldn't know would I? hahaha for me that has made so many mistakes in my past relationships, and has more or less given up on a romantic relationship.. I can't seem to put a finger on it.. it's not that I'm not happy when friends around me get hitched but it's just me.. I guess maybe I can't be tied to just one person.. But don't get me wrong, it's not that I dot love anyone, it's just that I love too many.. It's not that I don't need someone to care for me or someone to support me, but I find that in so many close people beside me... of course antagonists will say that my logic is warped and these are two very different types of relationships..

well, I agree that they are totally different, but to me, being those relationships in the past has made me realize several things... when you're together with someone, you look forward to the other person showing care concern n love, so much so that you are swayed inside out by that person.. a great friendship can actually be degraded in a way once a romantic relationship has been started..

okok, maybe I'm not making any sense to you, let me try to re-summarize...

I believe in love, I'm happy for my friends who have found someone they can spend their lives with (I really am!).. I can't sand all those lovey dovey young kids around that think that what they know is love.. I have given up in finding someone, as I feel that it's really quite impossible to find someone that can match my character n personality n lifestyle.. (With man some things are impossible; with God all things are possible!). So now I'm just moving along with my life, using my life n time to look into more meaningful areas, I guess I've gone past the romantics... and learnt the hard way..

the greatest love there is comes from a cross upon a hill...

Source: http://enzeru21.blogspot.com/2012/11/more-engagements.html

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